[He's not sure "admirable" is the right word for it. He's very aware of his flaws - to the point of obsessing over them. Kaname had been good at keeping him in check.

What will future him be like? Thanks to Verstael, he has a good idea what he'll look like. But that isn't what she's asking. The truth is, after being taken from his own world over two years ago, and learning things back home only get worse, he has trouble imagining any kind of future.]

I don't know. All I want is be able to remain at Noct's side. So whatever I am in the future, I have to be able to do that.