Putting it like that, it sounds kind of bad, actually. Well.

"Not... not like that, exactly, no." He exhales, letting some spidery red petals catch in his hand. Again, let's get rid of those immediately. "It's just... I'm the one who pushed you into letting me join you, and then after I'd hurt you, I didn't even try to clean up my mess. I just upset you, then ran off myself."