Slow going as it was, she was still getting a bit of a distance on him. He hated that he was a bit grateful for it, but he needed a moment to contend with himself. Ruining things was inevitably what Kaito usually did, but he didn't it want it to be because he did this wrong. ... Obviously wrong, anyway. He was still probably going to get things wrong.

Remembering what a broken heart felt like wasn't really the ideal way to piece together your feelings, but Kai wagered he could work with it. There was a tickle at the back of his throat, but it was fine. This... Nothing had actually changed? (This was Incorrect.) He was going to convince himself of this though. Nothing had changed. The only thing that had happened was that he'd pushed her into a corner and that wasn't good at all.

Every few steps he took a longer stride, slowly making his way towards her side. In a brief, painfully fond motion, Kai reached over to give her head a single pat.

"Sorry I'm an idiot," he apologized softly as he drew his hand back. Sorry he was an even bigger idiot than he even knew. "But y'know its... I don't think loving someone is something you gotta punish yourself for."