[ Why would you take such a huge risk for me? You're crazy!
He knows that he's gone and hurt Noctis with this confession. He's had a lot of time to think too. Looking back on his actions, it had been on impulse. In the heat of the moment and the fact that he was sick of seeing Noctis' life being on the line - the not knowing if he was safe or not before he got to the altar, Ravus wanting to kill him, Ardyn toying with his mind over threatening Noctis' life. He'd snapped. Big time.
He had a lot of time to think things through while he was waiting for Noctis to wake up in his hotel room. He knew how reckless he'd been. ]
Noct. [ he's surprised at how even his tone is. ] Things happened fast on that altar and it was an impulse decision on my part. [ One that's living with now, one he doesn't regret doing. ]
[ He swears he can feel Noctis' eyes on him. ]
It wasn't just that, or the oath to protect you. You're family, my best friend and I couldn't stand to keep seeing your life on the line from various sources that day. I snapped when I put the ring on. I wasn't in the right mind, admittedly.
[ He's normally a smart man but this? wasn't a smart decision.
He can feel Noctis' hands on his shoulder, really feeling the stare down from Noctis. He returns the favor with moving his own hands to Noctis' shoulder and tries - keyword tries - to meet his gaze.
What if he'd died? A shiver goes up his spine as the nightmares flash before his eyes of his death. What if he had gone with Ardyn that day? Would those nightmares had come true? He quickly shakes it off.
He tries to come up with an answer to that and he can't. He's failing. ]
I'm alive. [ he says as he squeezes Noctis' shoulders. ] Deep down I think a part of me knew that I could pull through. If I had been in the right state of mind, I don't know what I would've done. [ Would he put the ring on had he been more right in the head? He doesn't know. ]
But I do know this, Noctis. I won't dare leave you now or do anything that reckless again. You... have my word.
[ Noctis is... special to him, he knows that much. Family, friend, brother... someone he's known since they were kids. He loves Noctis, not in love, but loves him dearly. ]
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He knows that he's gone and hurt Noctis with this confession. He's had a lot of time to think too. Looking back on his actions, it had been on impulse. In the heat of the moment and the fact that he was sick of seeing Noctis' life being on the line - the not knowing if he was safe or not before he got to the altar, Ravus wanting to kill him, Ardyn toying with his mind over threatening Noctis' life. He'd snapped. Big time.
He had a lot of time to think things through while he was waiting for Noctis to wake up in his hotel room. He knew how reckless he'd been. ]
Noct. [ he's surprised at how even his tone is. ] Things happened fast on that altar and it was an impulse decision on my part. [ One that's living with now, one he doesn't regret doing. ]
[ He swears he can feel Noctis' eyes on him. ]
It wasn't just that, or the oath to protect you. You're family, my best friend and I couldn't stand to keep seeing your life on the line from various sources that day. I snapped when I put the ring on. I wasn't in the right mind, admittedly.
[ He's normally a smart man but this? wasn't a smart decision.
He can feel Noctis' hands on his shoulder, really feeling the stare down from Noctis. He returns the favor with moving his own hands to Noctis' shoulder and tries - keyword tries - to meet his gaze.
What if he'd died? A shiver goes up his spine as the nightmares flash before his eyes of his death. What if he had gone with Ardyn that day? Would those nightmares had come true? He quickly shakes it off.
He tries to come up with an answer to that and he can't. He's failing. ]
I'm alive. [ he says as he squeezes Noctis' shoulders. ] Deep down I think a part of me knew that I could pull through. If I had been in the right state of mind, I don't know what I would've done. [ Would he put the ring on had he been more right in the head? He doesn't know. ]
But I do know this, Noctis. I won't dare leave you now or do anything that reckless again. You... have my word.
[ Noctis is... special to him, he knows that much. Family, friend, brother... someone he's known since they were kids. He loves Noctis, not in love, but loves him dearly. ]