[That selfishness is exactly what he fears, though he doubts anyone would call him out on it. And the timeline for change is about what he'd expected, what he'd suggested to Verstael months ago, and considered with Cor months even before that. Ardyn's time is the best suited for alterations that will ripple in a positive way, but they also don't know how far those ripples might go. Without his influence and corruption in Niflheim, Ifrit wouldn't be a daemon, the army wouldn't have such powerful magitek, they might not have conquered the world so easily. Lucis, a peaceful Lucis... he could still have been born there. Maybe. If the stars aligned.
Or Bahamut would, more likely, ensure that a Chosen is born, somehow. Thirty some-odd years with a shifted situation would not undo thousands more of careful planning.]
It isn't fair. But I've been selfish plenty in my life already, so... I want to do what's best for Eos. That's my duty. If it's this, I have to accept that. If there's something better, I'll accept that, too.
[If it means not existing at all, or if it means living a different life, or if it means still dying but leaving the world at peace instead of in darkness. All of it- he'll do it. He'll learn how to accept it. He won't hold his breath for a happy ending, but there's no harm in looking, either.]
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[That selfishness is exactly what he fears, though he doubts anyone would call him out on it. And the timeline for change is about what he'd expected, what he'd suggested to Verstael months ago, and considered with Cor months even before that. Ardyn's time is the best suited for alterations that will ripple in a positive way, but they also don't know how far those ripples might go. Without his influence and corruption in Niflheim, Ifrit wouldn't be a daemon, the army wouldn't have such powerful magitek, they might not have conquered the world so easily. Lucis, a peaceful Lucis... he could still have been born there. Maybe. If the stars aligned.
Or Bahamut would, more likely, ensure that a Chosen is born, somehow. Thirty some-odd years with a shifted situation would not undo thousands more of careful planning.]
It isn't fair. But I've been selfish plenty in my life already, so... I want to do what's best for Eos. That's my duty. If it's this, I have to accept that. If there's something better, I'll accept that, too.
[If it means not existing at all, or if it means living a different life, or if it means still dying but leaving the world at peace instead of in darkness. All of it- he'll do it. He'll learn how to accept it. He won't hold his breath for a happy ending, but there's no harm in looking, either.]