Then I suppose we'll have to think of something else.

[Though really, a wall was a wall. The level of people guarding it was the only thing that changed. Did he want to go over the wall? No, of course not. He wanted to laugh and dance and drink, preferably with other people around doing the same thing. He wanted Edmund's drumming and Lucy's voice and ...

His hands stilled for a moment in Ed's hair.]

I know it's silly to be so concerned about this, and yet I am. I don't know if I'm holding onto it so much because I miss home and our sisters, or..

I don't know.

[A pause, and then he let out a sigh before his fingers resumed their work.]

I kissed him.