[A quiet, vague noise is his initial response, but his expression shifts again- somewhat relieved, but also sheepish. He knows he's being foolish.]

Vianca said I should consider it to be like a vacation. That sounded fine at first, but it's been half a year already. It sucks to feel so conflicted about it, you know?

[He has to go back. He knows that. There's so much waiting on him. But going back also means losing so much, and... it's hard to want to let go of it, yet. He's seen the change in his father already- gone home only to return with less love and more bad memories. Gained a child but lost the love of his life. Their future isn't kind, and even without knowing the details, he's wary about rushing back to it.]