[Ardyn sighed under his breath, lowering the cup of tea. If he was to be honest with himself...he wanted this to happen, in some small measure. He wanted to know the truth of how he really felt, confused and tangled as it all was. If this would force it out one way or the other, then--]
I can't hate you, and that's why I'm so furious with you. Because I thought you better than all of this, reason or motive be damned. I wanted to believe that I was wrong and that things would never grow as dire as they did, as part of me knew they would.
You're my brother, you damnable fool. I loved you, and some idiotic part of me that knows naught of self-preservation still does, or at least still cares. And that is the entire reason why this hurts and has hurt for these long two thousand years. Yes, I grew to resent you and perhaps I did want to despise you, but...I just have no ability for it.
[The most extreme case of 'I'm not mad, just disappointed' that the multiverse had ever seen.]
You say I could have won, and perhaps you're right. But even after all of that, no matter how far apart we drifted or how much you and your soldiers wanted me dead...I would rather have died than cut you down for any reason.
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[Ardyn sighed under his breath, lowering the cup of tea. If he was to be honest with himself...he wanted this to happen, in some small measure. He wanted to know the truth of how he really felt, confused and tangled as it all was. If this would force it out one way or the other, then--]
I can't hate you, and that's why I'm so furious with you. Because I thought you better than all of this, reason or motive be damned. I wanted to believe that I was wrong and that things would never grow as dire as they did, as part of me knew they would.
You're my brother, you damnable fool. I loved you, and some idiotic part of me that knows naught of self-preservation still does, or at least still cares. And that is the entire reason why this hurts and has hurt for these long two thousand years. Yes, I grew to resent you and perhaps I did want to despise you, but...I just have no ability for it.
[The most extreme case of 'I'm not mad, just disappointed' that the multiverse had ever seen.]
You say I could have won, and perhaps you're right. But even after all of that, no matter how far apart we drifted or how much you and your soldiers wanted me dead...I would rather have died than cut you down for any reason.