[Nah man, it's fine, fuck off, he can deal with it on his own!! Yep.]

Yeah. I don't know, I guess. Sometimes it feels easier one way, but then sometimes the other way feels easier.

[He wants to take things back and go back to hiding. He wants to have told someone earlier. He wants someone to have known all along to tell him it was okay and help him before he ever had the chance to get so used to hiding it, it was the obvious, easiest choice. He wants for there to have been nothing to hide in the first place.

He doesn't want anyone else to know.]

It's fine how things are, so I just -- why screw it up, you know? [Before the inevitable screwing up he always did.]