[ In the future, she'll give a part of her crystal to another... to essentially use them, without telling them the true reason for it, even if she will be saving their life. In this present, she's doing the opposite. She's giving her crystal freely to him to save him, to protect him; not for some grander plan, but solely because she wants to, because she cares about him.
She won't know the significance of this change until she returns to her world, but for now? She's relieved that he hadn't even thought this exchange would be making a tool out of him. So careful she is to reveal what she is, for all of how deities and powers-that-be are thought of, whether good or bad, that she doesn't want to be perceived as just another one who uses someone.
And she's afraid of this because... she still doesn't understand the point of his gods bestowing all of these memories to him, making him suffer like so, and it pains her that this-- another crystal, one from an entirely different world-- must step in to correct the lack of a failsafe. It shouldn't have come to this, he shouldn't have to question his own memories or who he is or how he'll be in the future. ]
Okay.... Okay. I had been worried that you'd be worried, and-- [ She shakes her head and brings her hand to his chest, her palm over his heart rather than over the crystal. Clearly, her worry on that isn't necessary, and she responds with a smile. Sometimes she worries too much. ] I just want you to know that you're still you.
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She won't know the significance of this change until she returns to her world, but for now? She's relieved that he hadn't even thought this exchange would be making a tool out of him. So careful she is to reveal what she is, for all of how deities and powers-that-be are thought of, whether good or bad, that she doesn't want to be perceived as just another one who uses someone.
And she's afraid of this because... she still doesn't understand the point of his gods bestowing all of these memories to him, making him suffer like so, and it pains her that this-- another crystal, one from an entirely different world-- must step in to correct the lack of a failsafe. It shouldn't have come to this, he shouldn't have to question his own memories or who he is or how he'll be in the future. ]
Okay.... Okay. I had been worried that you'd be worried, and-- [ She shakes her head and brings her hand to his chest, her palm over his heart rather than over the crystal. Clearly, her worry on that isn't necessary, and she responds with a smile. Sometimes she worries too much. ] I just want you to know that you're still you.