[He'd never intended to make it into a casual thing; it certainly wasn't in the moment when it happened. There'd been panic and yelling, usually blood or some injury, plenty of pain. It wasn't a fun experience. He'd experienced it and witnessed it, both- through his own, or through the close calls of his comrades. It had happened too many times to count, as they'd fumbled their way through a dangerous, unknown world with too little information and nowhere near enough resources. Luck, magic, and stubborn teamwork had gotten them through the worst of it, every time. If not for all of that, any of them could have died multiple times.
It isn't casual, though. It isn't... "no big deal". and knowing how he'd felt in those moments, waiting in panic as a phoenix down kicked in or a potion sealed up a bad wound that could have killed someone who didn't have magic in their pockets, well. He knows how she must feel, watching him. He doesn't want to just brush those feelings aside like they don't matter, just because he's gotten used to playing fast and wild with his own life.]
The crystal... is gonna store them, you said. Keep the bulk of them away from my head, so this doesn't happen again. Is that- as long as I have it with me?
[He'd assumed that was the case, back when they first discussed it, but he needs to know for sure what counts as a permanent solution. If the wall breaks or something happens, he doesn't want to fall into that state again and upset everyone. He doesn't want to die through his own ignorance, either.]
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[He'd never intended to make it into a casual thing; it certainly wasn't in the moment when it happened. There'd been panic and yelling, usually blood or some injury, plenty of pain. It wasn't a fun experience. He'd experienced it and witnessed it, both- through his own, or through the close calls of his comrades. It had happened too many times to count, as they'd fumbled their way through a dangerous, unknown world with too little information and nowhere near enough resources. Luck, magic, and stubborn teamwork had gotten them through the worst of it, every time. If not for all of that, any of them could have died multiple times.
It isn't casual, though. It isn't... "no big deal". and knowing how he'd felt in those moments, waiting in panic as a phoenix down kicked in or a potion sealed up a bad wound that could have killed someone who didn't have magic in their pockets, well. He knows how she must feel, watching him. He doesn't want to just brush those feelings aside like they don't matter, just because he's gotten used to playing fast and wild with his own life.]
The crystal... is gonna store them, you said. Keep the bulk of them away from my head, so this doesn't happen again. Is that- as long as I have it with me?
[He'd assumed that was the case, back when they first discussed it, but he needs to know for sure what counts as a permanent solution. If the wall breaks or something happens, he doesn't want to fall into that state again and upset everyone. He doesn't want to die through his own ignorance, either.]