... This hatred... you turn inward, to protect others from the harm you fear you may cause them otherwise.

But those forces within you... are not you. They do not speak for your heart--metaphorically. You have been changed, but... you are here, in a world where you can be... heard. And felt. You fear the isolation, but it is not here. I wish there was more I could do... to aid you, troubled as you are about these physical matters. So that you may experience more than your state would allow.