[ Honerva has lived lifetimes not taking responsibility for those she had hurt. It is why she must be so conscious of it now. Hurt people hurt people, and she... had been very hurt. Her frame of this was largely through her husband's reign, and from that future vision that hurt would continue.

She had... friends here. Friends and family too precious to risk losing for her own carelessness. Perhaps there was irony in it, too. Mistakes... could occur. They were not unforgivable. ]

... I wish you would not be grateful for words I have said in haste.

[ She barely even recalls what she said to cause all this, even if the emotion remained. There was just too much in her mind right now. Exhausting -- but she needed to be present. Here. ]

Not when you will not be true to yourself and your own feelings.