It's hard not knowing; it would be a lie for me to say differently, but when I see the pain that knowing causes you, I know I am not ready to know. Sometimes, as terrible as the imaginings are, knowing the truth is worse.

[One of his hands flattens against Cor's back, fingers unconsciously rubbing at tense muscles.]

One thing I do know is that I wish whatever actions I took to lead us to that place did not hurt you so much.