[It's not his talent, it's himself that he thinks poorly of, only because it was - quite literally - beaten into him how much of a useless failure he was at an early age. He grew up with that, and the bitterness and anger shaped him into...a not very great person. Better now than he was, yes, but a few stray compliments won't change what nearly a decade or two has created.
And having to explain that makes him lean back and exhale, eyes closed and arms crossed over his chest. Here we fucking go - can't people just accept he has low self-esteem and drop the fucking matter? If he wanted to talk about it, he'd be sobbing on the chaise of some shrink's office.]
Listen, girly. I know I got skills, and some'a them I'm proud of, sure, but that don't make me 'good', or even 'great', as a person. I got my problems like the rest'a the people here, and while I appreciate y'all's saying there's something cool I can do - honestly, I do - don't call me something I'm not. [Because you know what? People that are told again and again that they're worthless, and start to actually believe it, get angry and confused when they're told the opposite, because it creates an intense mental and emotional conflict.]
Now, do you wanna hear another one I thought of or not? [Yes, he is deflecting, and deflecting hard, but Guzma's not here for therapy, he's here to relax.]
cw: mild, very brief mentions of child abuse
And having to explain that makes him lean back and exhale, eyes closed and arms crossed over his chest. Here we fucking go - can't people just accept he has low self-esteem and drop the fucking matter? If he wanted to talk about it, he'd be sobbing on the chaise of some shrink's office.]
Listen, girly. I know I got skills, and some'a them I'm proud of, sure, but that don't make me 'good', or even 'great', as a person. I got my problems like the rest'a the people here, and while I appreciate y'all's saying there's something cool I can do - honestly, I do - don't call me something I'm not. [Because you know what? People that are told again and again that they're worthless, and start to actually believe it, get angry and confused when they're told the opposite, because it creates an intense mental and emotional conflict.]
Now, do you wanna hear another one I thought of or not? [Yes, he is deflecting, and deflecting hard, but Guzma's not here for therapy, he's here to relax.]